Self Injury

I didn't start self injury for attention nor did I do it in hopes of dying, although I'm not saying I never wanted to or never tried, but the self injury was never connected to those times. I started cutting myself for a stress release. I did it to feel something other then stress and depression. When I could cut myself, it was relieving to see myself shred to pieces. It was a bigger pain then whatever had me down at the time I would do it. If I had something to distract me from my problems, I felt okay again. I felt I had friends but none that could fix my problems. They all said they were there for me but offered no solutions. I finally stopped around Easter on 2007. I've been so busy that I just realized it's close to Easter now which means it's been 2 years without self injury. I was looking at my tattoos the other night and was thinking, "Should I have gotten these?" but after realizing it's my 2 year mark from quitting that I'm proud of my tattoos. Even if people don't get them, I do. They have such a strong meaning to me. I'm proud of myself.